So many things going through my head tonight. I’ve been fighting tears for a few days now. Everything started when I missed the Henchmen shoot on Saturday.
I was looking forward to being there and was so upset that I couldn’t make it. It all went downhill from there.
I feel like life is just passing my by. I really don’t know how to explain it. I constantly fight this feeling and somtimes it kicks my ass. I don’t want to get out of bed or do anything. Evne writing this post is taking a lot out of me.
I seriously hate feeling like I can’t talk about this sometimes. I feel like a burden. I’m seriously stuck, I hate it.
On top of all that, I see how broken my family is. Half of us don’t talk and it kills me. I wish we could all be in the same place just once without any bullshit. I don’t care how bad any of us have fucked up. We all share the same blood. We she be able to see past each other’s shortcomings for fuck’s sake.